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You Want Unconditional Love but Don’t Know How to Give It
What we often think of as love, isn’t love at all.
If you’re human, you struggle with love. This must be a universal truth. I mean, there’s nothing simple about the feelings two people share toward each other, especially when it comes to romantic relationships.
We’re all broken in one way or another, and when we enter into a relationship with another person, we bring with us the full force of that brokenness. Looking back on my relationships, I see how this has played out again and again, both in myself and in my partners.
The trouble is, we often use our partners to try to fill the holes in our hearts. We jam them in there, trying to squeeze them into shapes they don’t quite fit into and expect them to remain there, like a dam holding back a flood of pain.
Then, when our partners inevitably pop out of those holes and the pain comes rushing through, we blame them for it. We yell and cry and plead for them to plug the hole and stop the pain. And maybe they climb dutifully back into that hole they don’t quite fit into, but it’s only ever temporary, isn’t it? The pain will once again push through and send both of your reeling.
The thing is, this isn’t love. How could it be? The other person is more like medication…
